Death..

So today is Mabon of 2019. So much has happened since this time last year. This time last year my world was flipped upside down. Stressed to the max… My grandmother’s health was just slowly going downhill. She was in the hospital more than she was out. Little did anyone know that only 14 days from today she would finally be free…..
I can say the last few months I lived with her. I can’t even put it into words of how that Woman changed my life. She no matters what would always help someone out. See I thought her passing would be the thing that would break me. Only it strengthened in the way see I had to be the strong one the shoulder to cry on. Thinking back on it seeing my mother’s heartbreak affected me the most. Also, knowing one day I would be in her shoes… As much as our world doesn’t really talk about death. Most western culture shuns death away. The only time it’s brought up is when someone has passed. Then and only then do family try to explain what Death is or why it’s part of life. True in a very sick way if ya think about it. We have cartoons to teach us that death is all part of life.
Though I think it needs to be something that is talked about at the dinner table. I was raised southern baptist true I’m no longer on that Path. I did, however, learn something in Sunday class one morning. I was thought that it sates in the Bible that death is to be celebrated and at birth; you are supposed to cry. For some reason that stuck with me. Little did I know then I would see death in a light like no other.
See I was beside my grandmother holding her hand as she lay in bed in her final hours. See due to all the complications she had to be put on a ventilator to give her lungs a rest and her body. She was also a do not resuscitate so fast forward to that night. She stayed with us 18 hours after she was taken off the ventilator. About 3;45 am that night she would take her last breath holding my hand. sounded by her Sister my great aunt and of course my mom. But death would not leave our family… On October 30 The world also lost an amazing soul Dolores D. Chapman or AKA Tiptoe Chick! Youtube will never be the same. I followed her for 12 years and got to talk to her and become friends. from the very moment, I saw her first YouTube video It was like I was meeting an old friend from a far off time. There’s not a day that goes by I don’t miss them.

So by January of this year, my life was getting back to normal. I had been back in Florida for 3 months had a job back at the old restaurant. Little did I know that was about to be gone as well. So fast forward to fathers day of this year, my aunt Passed away as well. It wasn’t in till the 4th of July that everything about death would hit me smack in the face.
That day I would receive a text that afternoon on Facebook. Right as I read the short text. My whole world and everything I thought I knew about this world or life would screech to a Holt. My first love and best friend had his life cut way too short… See I guess I had it in my head that I and a small group of friends would be the ones to make it through all the worlds bull shit. I guess you could say I thought we were supermen and women. In that one moment, I realized nothing last for every and bad things always happen to the good. Now He and I had a very complicated history. I have so many stories I could tell but I’m not the only in them and I feel like I would be telling stuff that’s not my place to say. I will say this. His that person you only meet once in the lifetime.