So a lot changes have happened in my life….
So many small and big changes has happened’ some good some bad most confusing. See some things have been Five years in the making. Honesty way longer then that..
OK So My mother moved in with My partner and I last month. I went to a place mentally and body wise I never thought I would go… I have a new smaller Crafting Magic/YouTube/podcast Room still putting the finely touches in to it!
So to shorten a very long Southern story. My mom met a man they dated he fooled most everyone. Akak he turns out to be shit. He was a bully that is all i’ll say ! So she has left him a number of times in the years they dated and married . So when I moved to Florida in the last/early hours with the help of my Mom. I have been living in Florida for about 5 years!
Has it been easy hell no!! We have broke up -took breaks -got back together… Moved out ,moved back, Talked, Moved Back! Fought , screamed ,shouted ,cried in sadness and Joy, but above all! I have always been safe, understood , seen, helped grow in ways I never knew where real!! I have learned ways to be there for my self, Loved from afar! I grew and grown but also got younger!
With that My mother moving down here is a blessing and in ways dreams but a big ASS LEARNING about boundary’s and whats fear and anxiety over truth . I made my Grandmother a promise on her dearth bed that i would help my mother escape that Monster. Took me Five years but it happened. Don’t get me wrong I love my mom being here everyday and seeing me how My Life is! I love how me and MY Partner live and how much were one of the same cloth! We are ying and yang ! Sens i left my home state and half my child-hood and teen years! It wasn’t all bad but the bad was in my eyes in a whole a lot more then less….
So with being Bipolar/Depressant / Agoraphobia/ severe anxiety disorders / PTSD So to have a person who is a reminder of that is kinda hard, But i know time is just a slip away for it all to end. So everything from now is a gift even if its a lesson! Every day and Night is a Blessed gift! So please take it all in good or bad everyday you wake up its a new page/Chapter CHANGE It Grow it/Clip it! Its YOUR STORY!
So with all of that being typed I had a night where I Slipped into a dream world real world or a night mare night. In truth it was just a misunderstanding /stress boiling over/New /Wine and just that WTF night. In a heated parted I slipped and went to far… I honesty thought I would never fall… But I was blessed it was blessed even in heated blear.. it could have took everything…. ended so many stories… But it was the breaker of every misspelled demon that happened that night…. I will proudly wear my scar! It will always be a reminder of how life can be a slip away….